[Traveling for the last three or so months has taught him a lot about awareness, especially when he usually stands guard while Nico passes out in a corner from being a shadow-taxi. Facing the living and the dead was enough to scare him into responsibility lately even though it still took time to really sink in.
(It doesn't hurt that his dagger's weighing down his pocket, too. Just in case.)
Hiro wonders the same thing, though it's more "would I be alive if Jason hadn't taken me out?" How different would his life be if he'd followed through with murdering the Seelie soldiers? He'd been so new to this world but he'd picked his loyalties earlier and it's what drove him to the field to try and protect the ones he cared about, never mind the fact he wasn't nearly skilled enough to do so. But he wasn't prepared to be a superhero either and that had happened.
Oaths and vows and all that old-time stuff confuses him. As far as Hiro's concerned, he'll fight for what he believes in and change as the tides change. His loyalties are unwavering though…hence his loyalty to Merida still, in a way. Despite being Seelie, she's still Merida and he can't change that.
The confirmation of her relationship with the Seelie doesn't surprise him, but there's something in his expression that wasn't there before. Something…maybe close to wonder? Or hope? Or maybe he's just so relieved to know that maybe it's not the worst idea ever. Except for the part where it is.
The thing with Nico di Angelo…even up until a few days ago he'd argued that it wasn't love because love is such a deep and powerful emotion that he's not sure he can even really tackle. And yet…he did some really stupid and dangerous things to follow Nico to the end of the world. Who the hell did that?]
Me either. [The admission is very soft, still uncertain even now that it's out there. There's also a fair amount of guilt on his face as he quickly drops his eyes.]
It's kind of funny, actually. You know, with the whole Seelie code being like "love conquers all" and then ours being like "passion before duty." How could they not see those two things conflicting with each other and causing stuff like this to happen? [There's a small laugh like he can't believe he's talking about this.] They either really didn't think this would happen, or they're using it to pit us against each other to destroy ourselves.
[…] I know if my older brother were here, he'd be Seelie. And I miss him a lot still, and I'd probably give anything to see him again but I'd never be able to fight him. And I thought it'd be that easy, that he'd be the only Seelie I'd ever really care about.
You can't plan for these things no matter how hard you try. [A shrug.] But I think I finally get it…other people? Love? Those are huge parts of survival, too.
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(It doesn't hurt that his dagger's weighing down his pocket, too. Just in case.)
Hiro wonders the same thing, though it's more "would I be alive if Jason hadn't taken me out?" How different would his life be if he'd followed through with murdering the Seelie soldiers? He'd been so new to this world but he'd picked his loyalties earlier and it's what drove him to the field to try and protect the ones he cared about, never mind the fact he wasn't nearly skilled enough to do so. But he wasn't prepared to be a superhero either and that had happened.
Oaths and vows and all that old-time stuff confuses him. As far as Hiro's concerned, he'll fight for what he believes in and change as the tides change. His loyalties are unwavering though…hence his loyalty to Merida still, in a way. Despite being Seelie, she's still Merida and he can't change that.
The confirmation of her relationship with the Seelie doesn't surprise him, but there's something in his expression that wasn't there before. Something…maybe close to wonder? Or hope? Or maybe he's just so relieved to know that maybe it's not the worst idea ever. Except for the part where it is.
The thing with Nico di Angelo…even up until a few days ago he'd argued that it wasn't love because love is such a deep and powerful emotion that he's not sure he can even really tackle. And yet…he did some really stupid and dangerous things to follow Nico to the end of the world. Who the hell did that?]
Me either. [The admission is very soft, still uncertain even now that it's out there. There's also a fair amount of guilt on his face as he quickly drops his eyes.]
It's kind of funny, actually. You know, with the whole Seelie code being like "love conquers all" and then ours being like "passion before duty." How could they not see those two things conflicting with each other and causing stuff like this to happen? [There's a small laugh like he can't believe he's talking about this.] They either really didn't think this would happen, or they're using it to pit us against each other to destroy ourselves.
[…] I know if my older brother were here, he'd be Seelie. And I miss him a lot still, and I'd probably give anything to see him again but I'd never be able to fight him. And I thought it'd be that easy, that he'd be the only Seelie I'd ever really care about.
You can't plan for these things no matter how hard you try. [A shrug.] But I think I finally get it…other people? Love? Those are huge parts of survival, too.